It's Cancer - Chills and Nausea

These two words describe my afternoon following yesterday's chemo: chills, nausea. For probably 12 hours I alternated between shivering and sleeping for an hour to kicking everything off and sweating while thinking I would vomit. It was a rough afternoon.

I "pilled up" last night and slept well. This morning I woke up feeling better. My joints are achy and my arms feel as if they weigh 100 lbs. each, but this is manageable.

Today I'm celebrating "quiet." The house is empty, except for Rose and me. Mr. B is working and everyone else went to Denver for a NYE wedding. I'm not sure what to do with only the sound of Rose snoring.

It's Cancer - Chemo day

I was at MDA at 6:15 a.m. to have blood work. Next I had my port accessed. Chemo started around 7:45 a.m. Since I had to be at the hospital so early, Mr. B dropped me. When I finished chemo I called Sweetness. She took me from the hospital to my house.

I had a quick bite to eat so I could take my medication for nausea and vomiting, as well a pain pill. In about 20 minutes I should be out. Big Daddy Nick and Dr. Mc are going shopping and taking TLP with them, so the house will be nice and quiet.

Today I'm celebrating Kelly Melone. She and I shared office space for many years. Yesterday she brought me pink roses and goodies to eat. It was good to catch up with her.

It's Cancer - It's Christmas Eve

The little elves have been busy in the house today. We traded turns entertaining TLP at times, but it's all ready ... and I was able to sit down and put my feet up before the rest of the family arrives.

It was 80+ in Houston today so we have cranked the air conditioning down low. I just watched the news and today wasn't as hot as it was last year on Christmas Eve. I remember not too many years ago when it snowed on Christmas Eve. That's more like it.

Today I'm celebrating family who have passed and won't be at our Christmas Eve table. I miss you all.

It's Cancer - Christmas Eve Eve

I'm so glad that I didn't have chemo this week. Except for the usual shortness of breath that I've been experiencing, I feel really normal and ready to complete my pre-Christmas activities.

Dr. Mc got us all organized last night and created to-do lists for each of us. I don't think anyone has worked on his/her to-do list except Mr. B. He's on Santa's permanent "nice" list.

Today I'm celebrating Christmas Eve Eve. When the lovely McCarley sisters were little, both of them called today (December 23) Christmas Eve Eve. They wanted to extend Christmas as long as they could.

It's Cancer - Too warm for wool hats

On days like today, when I leave the house, I always put a hat over the fuzz that remains on my head. Although it's supposed to be winter, the high in Houston today will be in the 70s, which is too hot for a wool hat. I need to practice scarf tying. The scarves will hopefully be cooler than the hats.

All of the presents I've bought are still unwrapped. Yes, I have the wrapping paper and ribbon. Yes, I have the time. What's missing is the energy.

Today I'm celebrating the annual girls Christmas brunch that occurs with Katy, Kay and Marilyn. It's always fun to catchup with these ladies. And the added bonus is that we meet at The Houstonian, which is beautifully decorated for Christmas.

It's Cancer - No chemo today

I was at MDA all morning, but didn't have chemo. Since I just had one last Friday, we skipped today. I pick back up with chemo this coming Wednesday.

Today I had the smush-y mammo done. The technician was very nice, but every time I said "ouch" I swear she turned the knob one more time. I also met with my surgeon. It seems early since I have 11 more chemos. I meet with her again in February with surgery probably to occur at the end of April or first of May. Between now and the time I meet with the surgeon again I'll meet with the plastic surgeon who will also be in the operating room.

Today I'm celebrating wrapping, which is on my agenda for tonight after dinner. But first, I think it's nap time.

It's Cancer - Another cold day

I was having some joint pain last night, which is one of the side effects of the new chemo. I took a pain pill, went to sleep, and woke up feeling hungry. I must be feeling OK because my appetite has returned.

Mr. B and I were making our list and checking it twice last night. Just a few things left to get. Ho. Ho. Ho.

Today I'm celebrating "local." There is a kid's store in the 'hood I plan to visit, along with a bookstore. I may have lunch out, also. I love shopping local!

It's Cancer - Making ready for Christmas

I started Phase II of chemo treatments last Friday. I had been told that this second batch of chemo would be better tolerated, and so it was. I was at MDA at 6:30 a.m. for blood work. Then I had my port accessed. Next was a consultation with the doctor. Chemo started around 11 a.m. and I was home around 1:30 p.m. I slept most of the afternoon and all night. I woke up on Saturday morning feeling OK.

Saturday Mr. B ran errands and attended an art lecture while I rested before a party Saturday night. Thanks to Sandy and Dave for delicious dinner and fun gift exchange. Sunday we went to church and then to breakfast at Mitzie and Bob's. And thanks to Richard and Sherry for bringing soup last night. This is definitely the right weather for warm soup.

Today I'm celebrating Anne. We played catch up at lunch with Kelly. Unfortunately, Anne had a dentist appointment and didn't get to go shopping for wrapping paper with us. Christmas items are already on sale.

It's Cancer - Phase II of chemo begins tomorrow

Mr. B will drop me at MDA tomorrow morning in time for my blood work at 6:30 a.m. Next I'll have my port accessed before being examined by my oncologist. Around 9 a.m. chemo is supposed to start. If everything goes on schedule, I should be home and in bed by noon or so, and asleep soon thereafter.

I went to the Dollar Store today to get gift boxes. I was in and out in no time, but now realize that I should have gotten some stocking stuffers while I was there.

Today I'm celebrating Lynn Roberts, a high school friend. A group of high school girlfriends get together every year in January. I was concerned about driving myself this year to New Braunsfels, which is where we meet most years. Today I got an email from Lynn who also lives in Houston. She offered me a ride to and from the reunion. Just one more example of human kindness.

It's Cancer - Feeling peaceful

I'm so pleased that the decision about Phase II of my chemo treatment is confirmed. I'll see my oncologist this Friday and my surgeon next Wednesday. I owe them both big hugs for their consideration of my options and coming to my aid yesterday. I know it's their job to take care of patients, but there's nothing wrong with thanking them for a job well done.

I think having chemo once a week will be tiring, but it's only for 12-weeks. And as I wrote yesterday, chemo for 12-weeks is much better than the possibility of have permanent heart damage.

Today I'm celebrating cooler weather. It's below 70 degrees outside now, and getting cooler.

It's Cancer - Chemo decision made

We had a great family discussion last night about my chemo options, not to mention delicious chili made by Big-Daddy Nick. Separately we came to the same decision: I should follow the experimental treatment that would be administered every three weeks and better target my cancer. But that all changed this morning.

I got a call from my oncologist this morning and we had a long discussion. She had spoken with my surgeon before speaking to me. After listening to what I had to say, she felt that the clinical researcher who talked to me last Friday, as well as the clinical nurse I spoke to yesterday, didn't do a good job explaining the possibility of an infection. Since my cancer is in my left breast, just above my heart, both doctors felt that I might be at risk of infecting my heart, which could have serious and long-lasting complications. It was their recommendation that I receive Taxol, which is the standard-of-care, weekly for 12-weeks chemo treatment. I agree. The last thing I want is to kick breast cancer, but be left with heart problems.

Today I'm celebrating moving forward with the knowledge that I'll be receiving the best possible treatment for my breast cancer. I feel good!

It's Cancer - Change in chemo

I've spent most of today reviewing what I received from the doctor and nurses about my chemo options. Basically, the chemo I've been receiving has done a good job of shrinking the size of my tumor, but has slowed down. My doctor is recommending that I switch to a more aggressive form of chemo.

Option #1: Taxol given by IV once a week for 12 weeks (about three hours). On the positive side, this is a "standard-of-care" treatment that is better tolerated by patients than some other forms of chemo. The medication has many of the same side effects I've been experiencing: nausea; hair loss; numbness, pain or tingling; fatigue; mouth sores; skin rash. The con as I see it is that I have this chemo once a week, which doesn't leave much recovery time in between treatments.

Option #2: Combination of three drugs. Doxil and Avastin given by IV every 21 days (about six hours) and Afinitor (taken daily by pill). (Doxil is approved by the FDA to treat breast cancer; the other two medications are approved to treat other forms of cancer and are being tested to see if they can have the same results on breast cancer.) This is a clinical research study to learn if receiving four cycles of experimental chemotherapy (believed to be more targeted to patients with triple-negative breast cancer, which is part of my diagnosis) before surgery can help to shrink the size of tumors in the breast and/or lymph nodes before they are removed through surgery. The side effects are about the same. (I asked the clinical nurse about the most common side effects and she said it was mouth sores.) The con as I see it is that there is a greater risk of infection, such as the cold I've had for two weeks. Doctors will monitor this closely and will take me out of the protocol if this combination isn't working for me. And the most positive outcome of participating in this research is helping other people in the future with what is learned from research. 

Today I'm celebrating a close family who I trust to help me make the right decision about the future of my treatment. It takes a village. 

It's Cancer - Chemo cancelled

Instead of chemo today, I was sent for a chest x-ray to determine if I have pneumonia. I'm at home now waiting on the results. Chemo is rescheduled for next Friday afternoon.

Next week I also have to let the doctors know if I want to continue with the standard chemo treatment I've been receiving or switch to a more aggressive medication. The current chemo treatment is working in reducing the size of my tumor. However, there is a more aggressive treatment that they would like to try. The side effects are more, but so are the benefits in that the more aggressive treatment is better targeted to my cancer. Either way I go, I'll start receiving chemo every week. I see a family conference happening this weekend to discuss my options.

Today I'm celebrating Sweetness, who was with me at MDA. She was great at asking questions and taking notes for me at the hospital. Before bringing me home, she took me to get freshly made soups from Whole Foods for today and tomorrow. Now for a nap.

It's Cancer - Unexpected biopsy

Big Daddy Nick took me to MDA this morning for what I thought would be a quick visit. I was supposed to have blood work and an ultrasound today in preparation for tomorrow's chemo. Something on the ultrasound made the doctors perform a biopsy. I still a big bruise on my breast from the biopsy that was performed at the end of September. Today I came home with my breasts wrapped to help with the bruising.

When Big Daddy came back to get me I was in tears. Some potato soup and a pain pill later I was asleep. Then everyone came home and now I'm awake, but still sleepy.

Today I'm celebrating family. They treat me so well, even making me eat when I don't want anything!

It's Cancer - A field trip

Right on time this morning Mitzie was here to chauffeur me to City Centre. It was a great day for shopping because it was cold outside and uncrowded inside. I made it about an hour and a half walking around before we called it quits and went to lunch.Yummy Mexican food. Thank goodness my distaste of onions has passed.

Tomorrow is prepping for chemo on Friday. I have blood work done and then a mammogram. This is the easy part. Friday, Sweetness will be with me at MDA for an appointment with my oncologist, port access and chemo.

Today I'm celebrating Mitzie. I honestly don't know what I would do without her.

It's Cancer - What a beautiful day

I'm feeling so much better today. Only a little bit of a couch and runny nose. Topo Chico is taking care of the scratchy throat. No mouth sores. Ha! I thought the cold/chemo combo was going to kick my butt, but I got this.

I put on one of my favorite shirts this morning only to discover (after removing the cleaning tag) that there is a hole near the hem. I hate it when that happens.

Today I'm celebrating a beautiful day. Girlfriends Chris and Kelly took me to lunch and we were able to sit outside at Hunky-Dory. Nothing surpasses catching up, eating a yummy meal, and receiving positive energy from for these fine ladies.

It's Cancer - A gloomy, rainy day

Mitzie and I were going to take a field trip to the Town & Country area, which I think is now referred to as City Centre although it's nowhere near the center of Houston. Anyway, it was raining so much this morning that we rescheduled.

On the health front, I'm once again somewhat audible and my nose is barely running. Unfortunately, I'm coughing so much my throat and chest are very sore. Recovery from this round of chemo has been very difficult because of my cold. Or maybe a truer statement is that getting over my cold has been more difficult because of chemo. Whichever, I'm tired of hacking.

Today I'm celebrating a brand new grand-nephew. Austin Clarence Pettit was born on November 29 to Byron's nephew and his wife, Matt and Kristina Pettit. The baby's pictures are adorable. We've never been to Atascadero, Calif. where they live, but I read: Close to everywhere you want to be, the City of Atascadero offers access to hundreds of wineries ... and the Pacific Ocean is just minutes away, as is stately Hearst Castle. Sounds like a great place where we should visit!

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It's Cancer - Repurposing the Astrodome

After watching the Texans play football against the Packers in the snow, I'm thinking the Houston Sports Authority should make a deal to move the Astrodome to Green Bay. How is it that Green Bay, where it snows often, doesn't have an indoor stadium and Houston has multiple?

The family was going to get a Christmas tree today, but the weather has kept us indoors. I'm still in bed not feeling well with Puffs at the ready, but smiling every time TLP has run into the bedroom or passed the door. He is still in his pajamas and continually singing Christmas songs. The tree can wait.

Today I'm celebrating the angels. I feel them surrounding me today, lifting me and helping me feel better.

It's Cancer - Mouth sores are back

I have things to do, but maybe not today. It's damp and cool outside, and I don't need my cold and stuffy nose getting any worse. I think the best thing to do is stay indoors and take medicine for my sore throat and mouth sores.

Climbing on my soap box, I'm tired of Speaker of the House Paul Ryan referring to Social Security Benefits as an "entitlement." I've paid into Social Security since I was 19 years old. I look at the Social Security statement that comes to the house and realize how much I've paid into the program. How can they cut back on the benefits?

Today I'm celebrating Mexican food. It's Friday and Mr. B likes to bring Mexican food home. I'll be ready.

It's Cancer - Normalcy

I'm sometimes forwarded articles about breast cancer such as the one I received yesterday from Kathleen. It was written by an oncology nurse who, after working with breast cancer patients, got the diagnosis herself. It was a beautifully written blog about how the nurse came to understand the feelings of cancer patients. 

In one example of what she came to understand she wrote about something that hit home with me. I've heard from so many friends since I announced I had breast cancer, yet there are still people (who I consider my friends) who have never acknowledged my diagnosis. The blogger explained this behavior very well: "You certainly couldn't blame them – you have even done the same to others when traumatic life events happened – and no you didn’t want to go out for drinks anyway because you don’t feel good. But you need normalcy." To those who haven't contacted me, it's fine to say something as simple as, “I’m so sorry this happened to you.” If you feel overwhelmed by the prospect of interacting with me it’s OK to say, “I don’t know what to say.” But when you say nothing at all or avoid me entirely, I feel abandoned and think you don’t care. This is what people need to understand.

Today I'm celebrating awkward moments. To those people who haven't contacted me, you don't have to assume the role of cheerleader, saying things such as “Don’t worry about it,” or “You’ll be fine.” I just need normalcy, which includes past friendships.

It's Cancer - A better day

I got numerous encouraging comments from friends after yesterday's blog. The comments all made me smile and feel happy. I actually put on clothes today, which doesn't happen every day, except for the dreaded bra.

I feel the mouth sores coming back. Will they always appear after I have chemo? Fortunately, I have my "swish and swallow" mouth medication. And, fortunately, (sweet) Big Daddy Nick drove to get me mac and cheese for lunch. I needed something soft to chew and swallow.

Today I'm celebrating my new green cap that came in the mail. I'm sure I look absolutely ridiculous wearing a green cap with a big flower on it, a dark pink breast cancer t-shirt (from my sister-in-law), black stretchy pants, and non-matching socks, but who cares. I'm comfortable.

It's Cancer - Rough afternoon

I have so many people telling me to stay positive that I feel guilty when I can't write about a good day. Today I spent too much time curled in a ball in bed or in the bathroom. And then there is my coughing that hurts my throat and chest. Here's a positive thought: Tomorrow is new day.

Finally, TLP is coming home tonight. He went with his parents last Tuesday to celebrate Thanksgiving in the Texas Valley with the Zamora clan. Since they came back from the Valley they've been house sitting for Dr. Mc's dad and stepmom. I've stayed away from them so as not to pass on my cold.

Today I'm celebrating Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer. The animated version that Burl Ives narrated is so fun to watch.

It's Cancer - And a nasty cold

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I woke up last Thursday morning coughing and sneezing, but I'm feeling better today. Thank goodness I had nurse Byron with me. He kept me well stocked in La Croix, crackers and Puffs.

I'm wanting to build my strength back, beginning with short walks. I'm out of breath after going to the kitchen and bathroom, and then getting back in bed. I think I'll start by walking the block around my house.

Today I'm celebrating The Englets, our next door neighbors, who shared their delicious Thanksgiving turkey and fixin's with us, as well as The Steitzs who gave us yummy Thanksgiving leftovers. Nurse Byron had plenty of Thanksgiving fixes.

It's Cancer - Seven hours at MDA

Thanks to Victoria for taking me to MDA this morning. I thought it would be a quick day, but I was wrong. All the waiting rooms were packed and the wait times were long. Amazingly my blood pressure stayed good, even with the frustrations of hurry up and wait. Mr B was with me for most of my chemo and I got home in time to crawl into bed and take the medications that will relax me and keep me sleeping and comfortable throughout the night, or until eight hours expires and it's time to re-dose. I'm also very happy that I got medication for my mouth sores. The warm salt-water gargles just weren't doing the job.

I spent probably an hour talking to a woman who I think is my age. She was first diagnosed with breast cancer in 2005, and spent two years in treatment at MDA. She celebrated being cancer free until 2014, when more tumors were found. She is again at the end of her treatments, but will remain on medication and have checkups every three months. She was up beat, positive, courageous, brave, beautiful and an inspiration. I felt sorry for her because her friend who drove her to MDA from Bryan, TX never got off her cellphone except to complain about how long they were waiting.

Today I'm celebrating everyone who has called, texted, emailed, come by the house, driven me somewhere, taken me to lunch, sent me flowers or cards or something comfy, etc. You all brighten my days and I'm so thankful. I'll probably not post for the next several days as my body recovers from the latest chemo treatment and screams "WHY?" I find I do best just sleeping as much a possible for the first few days.

It's Cancer - Vein for blood work

I don't think I've ever seen MDA so empty as it was this morning. I barely filled out the mandatory form before my name was called. After a couple of minutes, the nurse was able to find a vein for my blood work, and I was back in the car on my way home.

This afternoon I finished everything I wanted to do before chemo tomorrow. This mainly involved going to the grocery store (again) to ensure the few items Mr. B cooks are in the pantry and fridge. I have to keep the man fueled so he can take care of me.

Today I'm celebrating a quiet house. Dr. Mc, Big Daddy Nick and TLP are off to "the valley" for Thanksgiving. Through Sunday, Mr. B and I (plus Rose) will be the only ones in the house.

It's Cancer - I'm back after a couple of days off

There wasn't much happening the last few days so I didn't blog. Instead I chatted with Caren at the house on Friday morning before having lunch with Sandy. Saturday I stayed in the house and watched cooking and baking shows. And Sunday I ventured out, on my own, to the grocery store.

On the health front, my throat is much better although I still have sores on my tongue. I can swallow, but haven't been able to eat much because it is painful. Several friends who read my blogs keep reminding me to stay hydrated. I learned the importance of hydration when Daddy was ill and would continually have UTIs.

Today I'm celebrating Sweetness and Raff who are coming for dinner and a visit tonight.

It's Cancer - A call to MDA

I'm still having trouble swallowing so I called my doctor's office today. Come to find out, the same type of sores that are on my arms are in my throat. Makes sense since the sores have been spreading to other parts of my body from my arms.

There are already so many strong drugs in my body from the chemo that the doctor doesn't want to add more. I was told to gargle with warm salt water for my throat. The itching is partly related to dry skin. I'm already doing what I can for that, which is applying lotion to me skin.

Today I'm celebrating locally grown. Neighbors Diane and Mike harvested oranges from their yard and put a bag on our porch. I had one with my lunch today. It was little, very juicy and tasty. Thanks to the Easleys!

It's Cancer - Not much to say

Sore throat.

Itchy red spots.

Today I'm celebrating chocolate cake. Thanks Mr. B for the little bit of velvety goodness, even though I'm avoiding sugar, flour and chocolate. The five bites could elevate my mood.💝

It's Cancer - A different perspective

I had a call this morning from Tracye, who is an artist, neighbor, friend and former teacher of Dr. Mc and Big Daddy Nick. After she asked about me, I had to ask Tracye about her sister who lives in Calif. and comes to MDA for her cancer treatments.

Her sister started with lung cancer, which travelled to her stomach. She has undergone multiple rounds of chemo and surgeries for almost three years. She is in constant pain and will be back in Houston in January for radiation. I'm so sorry for Tracye's sister and their family. What strength it takes to continue fighting.

Today I'm celebrating Kathleen. She had a bad stroke several years ago and continues to work on improving her health. Thanks for sharing you experiences with me, Kathleen.

It's Cancer - Why me?

I'm tempted not to write today because I'm in such a depressed mood. Although I was out of the house part of Saturday, the rest of the days since chemo last Wednesday I've been sick. I thought that writing about my journey through breast cancer would be helpful to me, but keeping track of my physical ups and downs is turning out to be more mentally difficult than I thought.

I know that a positive attitude is important to beating cancer. When sadness overcomes me, as it has today, it's just harder to find a happy place to write about.

Today I'm celebrating Mr. B. On days like today, his thoughtfulness, kindnesses and love keep me going. He is my happy place, always.  

It's Cancer - Red spots on the move

The red spots or blotches that have, so far, been restricted to my arms are spreading. I now have some on my legs, chest and one on my head. I've had the chickenpox. I've had shingles. Hopefully these are just red spots from chemo, but it's time for me to step away from the medical Internet pages and self diagnosis.

After Wednesday at MDA the veins in my hands seem to have disappeared. Did I mention that another side effect of chemo is shrinking veins. Both of my hands have huge bruises covering them from blood being drawn on Wednesday.

Today I'm celebrating next-door-neighbor Tracy. Thanks for the flowers!

It's Cancer - Following up

I wrote a week or so ago about red spots that were appearing on my arms. I wondered if they were related to my chemo treatment and so, I've verified, they're part of the process. During the course of my treatment, the red spots may also appear on other parts of my body.

Also last week I wrote about body aches. I was hoping that these were related to age, but they are side effects of one of the medications that is supposed to give my immune system a "kick" after chemo. I can tolerate all the side effects because I know that one day I'll be cancer free.

Today I'm celebrating Shane Buechele. This young man shows lots of strength and grit as the UT freshman quarterback. I think I'm in love.

It's Cancer - Not well today

I have good days and not so good days. Last night I was achy and woke up between pain pills with nauseous feelings.

The only pain left this morning was in my right arm, but I have a slight fever and the chills.

Today I'm celebrating sweet Rose because she wants to curl up next to my feet and keep them warm. Good girl.

It's Cancer - Great news!

I didn't post yesterday because it was a long day at MDA. It started with Sandy picking me up at 6:30 a.m. (thanks, Sandy!) My first mammo was at 7:30 a.m. Around 8:30 a.m. was the molecular mammo that's an ongoing study at MDA. It's much easier and more informative than a regular mammo. When it's available, you'll thank me for being part of the protocol. Around 10 a.m. was un ultrasound.

I had a break from 11 a.m. while I read my book before having blood drawn at noon. Then it was time for lunch and more book reading. The appointment with my oncologist was at 2 p.m. (to give MDA time to get blood work and imaging results to her). She had a emergency and I waited an hour and a half to see her (more book reading), but the wait was worth it. She delivered the incredible news that my tumor has shrunken after two chemo treatments. On a gray day, this was the best news ever! By the time I left the doctor, had my port accessed and received my chemo treatment, it was 8:30 p.m. before Mr. B and I left MDA (he was with me during chemo).

Today I'm celebrating prescription drugs. Every six hours I take medications for nausea and pain. I also have an on-body injector attached to my left arm. It will start injecting medicine at 11:30 p.m. tonight to help protect against infections. After about 45 minutes all the medicine will be delivered and I (Mr. B) will pull the device off my arm. Before the Neulasta device was in use, most people had to go back to the hospital or doctor's office to get an injection. Progress!

It's Cancer - The day before chemo #3

As much as I enjoy people stopping by to see me, I also LOVE receiving cards via snail mail. Yesterday I got a card with a sweet message from Anne with an invitation for lunch during December when she is in town. Can't wait.

Speaking of lunch, I had a wonderful birthday lunch yesterday for Mitzie at State of Grace. We shared appetizers and a salad, all of which were fabulous. At one point I realized that the song playing in the restaurant was by The Suffers. What a special treat. The final treat was one of the cookies everyone receives when leaving. Yummy!

Today I'm celebrating strength. I pray for strength before spending a full day (tomorrow) at MDA. Resting today is my #1 priority today, along with getting all the clothes washed.

It's Cancer - A day off preparation

I have chemo on Wednesday, which means I'm in prep mode today. I'm cooking food and putting it in the freezer for Mr. B. Left on his own, he will make incredibly unhealthy food choices for himself while I eat soup and crackers on Wednesday through Sunday.

I woke up yesterday with some red spots on my arms. I thought about putting Neosporin on the spots, but didn't. If the spots are related to chemo, I want the doctor to see them on Wednesday. I also have a lump in the fold of my left elbow. I don't think this is a tumor because cancer spreads through lymph nodes and there aren't any in this area. So what is it? Another question for the doctor.

Today I'm celebrating Debbie. When her mom passed away four years ago I took cookies to the reception after her memorial service. I had forgotten about the platter, but Debbie brought it back yesterday filled with brownies. More importantly, she stayed for a visit. Thanks for your friendship throughout the years, Bebe (which is her grandmother name).

It's Cancer - Sunday without a Texans' game

How am I supposed to have my afternoon nap without a Texans' game? And Sunday won't be Sunday without an afternoon
nap.

On a more serious note, I said something yesterday that I didn't mean to be taken the way it was. I spoke the logical truth, but I guess the subject was just too emotionally sensitive. This makes me sad because the last thing I want to do is hurt this person. Yet no amount of apologies or rational conversation seemed to affect this person's hurt feelings. I guess time is the only healer in this case.

Today I'm celebrating long-time friend Kim. She is another person from my long ago corporate marketing communication days. She sent me a care package and a note letting me know that her 8 Ball said, "All good ahead for Julie." I like her 8 Ball.

It's Cancer - Feeling well this Saturday

I'm so thankful for those days when I wake up feeling well, like there is not one cancer cell in my body. Then, again, watching the UT vs. Tech game is wearing me out.

As I ate my leftovers from lunch yesterday I'm still smiling from spending time with girlfriends. As with friendships, quiche and roasted potatoes just get better with time.

Today I'm celebrating the Jaco family from Okla. Katie Lou and family, thanks for thinking of me. I love you all and hope to see you around the holidays. I can't wait to see how sweet Willa is growing and to kiss and cuddle with prince Henry.

It's Cancer - Nagging backache

For about 24 hours now I've had a sore back. I didn't think it was related to my cancer treatment, but knew I should call the doctor's office to see what I could take. Come to find out, the deep tissue ache I'm experiencing is a side effect of one of the medications. For the next six months, I guess I should just assume that every ache and pain I have is related to chemo. I'm lucky that I'm not experiencing some of the more severe side effects.

I had lunch today with friends Chris, Sharon and Victoria. We ate at Shade where, I'm happy to report, the new chef is doing a good job with new and old recipes. It was fun to catch up with the ladies while having a tasty lunch. I feel so comfortable with these women that I took off my cap and showed them the peach fuzz on my head.

Today I'm celebrating Martha, Mary, Marsha, Jade and Seth, who live outside of Dallas. I got a care package from them yesterday that included hand-knitted socks, a necklace created especially for me, a sweet book, and a wonderful card with well wishes from all of them. I'm sending love and thanks back to them.

It's Cancer - It takes a village

Big Daddy Nick is "on the road again" with The Suffers. When he is in town, he has morning duties of getting TLP up, fed, dressed and off to pre-school. When he is traveling, the rest of the village shares morning duties. Dr. Mc gets TLP up and downstairs in his high chair. I get him fed and dressed. And Mr. B drives him to school. We all miss Dada when he is gone.

The whole house empties around 7:45 a.m. so sweet Rose and I climb back in bed to watch the morning shows and wait for my nausea to disappear. The news was refreshing today with recaps of the world series and Country Music Awards, instead of the latest campaign spins. I loved seeing the replays of the Cubs' last out and the first baseman shoving the winning ball in his back pocket. That's a prized (and valuable) souvenir. As for the CMA recap, Beyonce singing a country version of her hit song "Daddy Lessons" with the Dixie Chicks was awesome, as was the group of ladies led by Reba McEntire singing Dolly Parton's songs to the legend. So nice to see positive stories and get away from the campaigns, if only for a few minutes. Maybe that is why my nausea is mild this morning, but in reality I must give credit to my drugs "kicking in."

Today I'm celebrating down-the-street neighbor, Mary. Yesterday she left me a sweet note with a goodie bag of lotions and potions. Mary is a cancer survivor and has been incredibly supportive of my journey. Thanks to her, I'm going to treat myself to lavender body wash and lotion this morning. Mary, you make my days better!

It's Cancer - Catching up with friends

Yesterday I drove myself to vote. There were only about five to seven people in front of me in the line. When I showed my driver's license for identification, the man looked at my picture and me several times. I told him I was willing to remove my cap, but warned him that my hair wasn't the same as in the photo. A woman next to him finally smiled and told me that wouldn't be necessary.

You know how you have friends who you keep in touch with via emails and Facebook? Then, when you finally get together, after a few minutes of talking about what's currently going on in your lives and sharing photos the conversation turns to happy memories and lots of laughter. I had a wonderful lunch today with two such friends.

Today I'm celebrating Susan and Wayne. I met Wayne when we were in college and Susan was my writing buddy when we both worked for corporate American. Wayne was a partner in a graphic design firm that worked with us. It was so good to see the two of them. Let's not wait so long between visits!

It's Cancer - Shopping is always good for the soul

Today Dr. Mc and Big Daddy Nick are celebrating their 8th wedding anniversary. Of course I remember their wedding and how much fun we had the night before at their rehearsal dinner and costume party on Halloween 2008. It's hard to believe it was eight years ago.

Speaking of Halloween, Mr. B and I had a grand time last night handing out candy and other goodies. Just as we were about to run out of treats, neighbors Sandra and Charlie came across the street with their candy and a bottle of wine. The three of them seemed to enjoy themselves more and more, especially when they pulled the cork on the second bottle of wine.

Today I'm celebrating a girls' outing. Thanks KS for some retail therapy and lunch.

It's Cancer - Happy Halloween

Thank goodness it's Halloween before the Christmas decorations take over. I was riding in the car yesterday and noticed that every retail center is already decorated with sparkling lights and stars. Spooky.

I've read about the fatigue associated with chemo, but are deep sleep and vivid dreams also part of the side effects? I've been sleeping "so hard" as Mr. B describes it. And now the vivid dreams. This morning I had a scary dream that I had to completely and thoroughly clean the house every day.

Today I'm celebrating Halloween, or All Hallows Eve if you prefer that term. There's not a bite of candy in the house, but Mr. B promises there will be by 6 p.m. tonight.

It's Cancer - To cover my head or not

Yesterday I had lunch with Mr. B at the local "grill" where there were several people that we know. I didn't have a cap on my head, which seemed to make even people I didn't know uncomfortable.

Here's my dilemma. As someone with a "people-pleasing" personality, I don't want to make people feel uneasy. Yet when it's 85+ degrees outside, I don't want to put anything on my head because I'll start sweating.

Today I'm celebrating Mr. B's aunt, who is 95 years young. Happy birthday, Evelyn! See you this afternoon at a family gathering to celebrate your long life.

It's Cancer - A better day

My days and nights are all running together. I slept most of yesterday thanks to pain meds, but woke up around 3 a.m. Thank goodness there is all-night television and continuous reruns of Law & Order. I don't think I've ever seen one twice.

My hair is no more than fuzz now so I avoid mirrors. We're invited to a 95th birthday party tomorrow afternoon and another gathering in the evening. I'd like to make an appearance at both, which will require wearing one of my caps or beanies.

Today I'm celebrating lattes. Mr. B brings me one every Saturday morning after he has breakfast with his buddy, Keith. Thanks, Mr. B!

It's Cancer - Day 2 after Chemo #2

Laying in the dark, curled in the fetal position and shivering.

This, too, shall pass.

Today I'm celebrating Rilla, longtime friend and Sweetness' Godmother. Happy birthday, Rilla Ann.

It's Cancer - Day after Chemo #2

On the first day after my second chemo I have no appetite, I'm nauseous, and my hands are shaking. I've eaten a few saltine crackers this morning and in a few minutes I'm going to take my morning meds. About an hour after that I'll be asleep (I hope).

I had a total of seven drip bags during chemo yesterday. I also had an on-body injector (OBI) placed on my arm. This device will help to boost my immune system 27 hours after the small needle was placed on my arm. Once the medicine is delivered I'll pull the device off. The side effect is muscle aches, which I'm experiencing this morning. It feels like I have the flu, except my head isn't congested.

Today I'm celebrating a clinical dietitian I met yesterday at MDA. She gave me tons of tips and ideas on what to eat and what to avoid. I'm ordering a book she recommended. She also recommended some ginger chews to help settle my stomach (have one of those in my mouth now).

It's Cancer - Chemo day

It's chemo day and I'm ready. I'll leave the for hospital in about 30 minutes. Today's activities include: blood work, meeting with dietician, meeting with doctor, needle insert in port, and chemo. It will be a long day and I'll be anxious to get home and in bed.

I'm hoping that on the way home from the hospital Mr. B and I can go vote. We'll play that by ear.

Today I'm celebrating pink. Mr. B and Dr. Mc have left the house in their pink shirts. TLP has his pink shirt ready. And mine is hanging on the back of the door ready to go.

It's Cancer - Errands and chores day

I'm happy to report that Dr. Mc and I finished TLP's Halloween wig last night. Unfortunately it's supposed to be 86 degrees in Houston on Halloween so I don't know if he will wear the wig or his costume. It may be too warm.

Tomorrow is a full day at MDA, including chemo. I think I'll be not feeling well through the weekend, so in preparation I went to Target and Kroger this morning. I want to cook this afternoon and freeze a couple of meals so Mr. B won't have to worry about it. This afternoon I'm also going to wash clothes and change the sheets on the bed. In my world, chemo might slow me down for a few days, but I can still get it (whatever "it" is) done.

Today I'm celebrating the scent of lavender. I love the clean, fresh smell of lavender, such as the candle burning in the kitchen.

All day yesterday I was covered in my own hair. If I scratched my head, hair fell. If the wind blew, hair fell. Just sitting, hair fell. Unfortunately I wore a black top all day so just imagine how my shoulders looked (covered in hair).

I took a shower last night and clogged the drain. I got out of the shower and was covered in hair. No matter what I did, I couldn't get rid of the hair on me. Finally I sat on the bathroom floor and cried. Crying didn't get rid of the hair either, but somehow after my pity party for one, I laughed at my silly looking head and got dressed. I know I'll adjust to my hair loss. I know it will eventually grow back.

Today I'm celebrating neighbor Sandra. She and I had a nice visit yesterday afternoon. I always enjoy talking with her.