I'm tempted not to write today because I'm in such a depressed mood. Although I was out of the house part of Saturday, the rest of the days since chemo last Wednesday I've been sick. I thought that writing about my journey through breast cancer would be helpful to me, but keeping track of my physical ups and downs is turning out to be more mentally difficult than I thought.
I know that a positive attitude is important to beating cancer. When sadness overcomes me, as it has today, it's just harder to find a happy place to write about.
Today I'm celebrating Mr. B. On days like today, his thoughtfulness, kindnesses and love keep me going. He is my happy place, always.
I hate that you are sick. I love that you find the silver lining. You are an inspiration.
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DeleteSorry you are feeling down and so glad you are surrounded by so many people who love you!! Wish I were there to give you hug myself. xoxoxo
ReplyDeleteHugs back to you, Martha.
DeletePraying for you daily, sweet friend. Mr. B and GOD are both there for you on a daily basis....Your girlfriends from high school are there for you as well! Sending you prayers and happy thoughts and good vibes. Love to you! -Paula
ReplyDeleteYour prayers and good vibes are appreciated, Paula.
DeleteIt seems to me that this emotional reaction is pretty normal. It sounds like & I know you have a wonderful family & precious friends whom whom you can not be replaced. Don't knock yourself around when you feel like this but hopefully you will feel a little better tomorrow and the next day..and so on. Just remember, this shit isn't gonna last forever, but you will! See you in December, I hope.
ReplyDeleteYes, see you in December!
DeleteMy thought for you today is learning the P.I.N. trick. In everyday life and especially during an illness like cancer, it is helpful and healthy to stay as upbeat as you can. Soooo in trying to assess how you feel about an issue, start with P for positive. If you can't in any way feel positive about an issue go to I for interesting. Look long and hard to pick out something, anything learned or any wisdom you can pass on, really any shred of good out of a tough situation. If all this fails, then you go to N for negative. If you can stay in the P.I. zone, your memory of the incident will forever be better. And how we perceive our daily life becomes how we remember it.
ReplyDeletePlease allow me one more suggestion, read Catherine Center's book, Happiness For Beginners. Catherine is a St. John graduate, then I think Vassar, then U of H masters. Lives in Oak Forest, and I think this was her fourth novel. All light and somewhat romantic reading, with subtle messaging that any woman of any age can embrace. This book spells out how to view tough situations, and boy, you are in one of the toughest! So, make my day by picking up a copy and emerge yourself in reading. Then buy her other novels and read them too!
Love P.I.N. and am going to Amazon to see if I can get Catherine Center's book(s). Thanks, Mary, for your continued support and suggestions. They mean so much to me! And the blanket. When I'm on the couch I always have your blanket on or near me. Now, my grandson is teasing me by saying it's his "blankie." He loves how soft it is!
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